I am grieving a living person. It's a very painful process, excruciating. But I'm willing to go to the mat, and do the heavy work. I don't want to live in this box anymore.
I have let my self worth be directed by a person who is wounded. I can't do this anymore.
I am making myself small in order to try to gain acceptance and I will never get it. It has been shown to me over and over and over again that I will not get it.
Now is time to have compassion and acceptance for myself.
I have to branch out and know that a higher power is going to see me through.