And Liz Gilbert said unused creativity is not benign. Hmm. I believe I do have the creativity in me, and I need to write down when the thoughts pop in my head because if I don't, they are now GONE! I love, love, love to work out life writing this blog.
Today's missive revolves around the project that has been going on at my house for the last few months. We decided to build an inground pool back in August. The fact that we had an above ground pool for 5-6 years might have indicated that we would use one. We only toyed with the idea of putting one in off and on over the years.
There was a small (destructive) voice inside of me that said, I was not worthy of a pool.
|My view on December 27th, 2015|
That same voice said we shouldn't buy a BMW or other "fancy" car. I had a hard time buying our last vehicle which happened to be top of the line. Something about a pool or expensive car says excess. Or is it that I'm not worthy?
It's interesting to pay attention to the thoughts around this. And I have learned that I have for years told myself stories about my worthiness which were not true. And I am cracking open those thoughts slowly but surely. It's not easy work of course, but evolving never is.
But this time we went for the pool. Refinanced and upped our mortgage a bit, and away we go.
|First "spa" experience on 12/10/15|
This is our backyard!
Mallory said it feels like a neighbor's yard and I concur.
And I'm going to enjoy every moment of it, including cleaning the blasted leaves out of the pool!