I volunteered to participate in VBS… again. It's about 10-12 years now.
I didn't want to. My overriding predominant feeling that was really, really clear to me was that I was done volunteering for VBS. And it has taken me years to listen to that intuition. I have written about this topic of VBS before. There was only one person, maybe two, in my family who wanted me too.
My eldest daughter said something to the tune of me destroying her life and "you have always volunteered."
I shouldn't do things because other people want me too. Even the people who came out of my own body.
The dread set in last week. I have pushed it out of my head all summer but it is upon us. It starts tomorrow.
This is the opposite of being passionate.
One needs to follow their passion to be fulfilled.
I will put my game face on and do this thing but I'm so biding my time and waiting for this week to be over. That is now how to live. I know better than this. Why do something when you just dread doing it? There are many other things in life that are necessary that I may not look forward to and need to do. This is not one of them anymore.
I will follow my intuition the next time.