Sunday, April 19, 2009
As you can tell I watch Oprah and I just counted and have 32 of her shows on my DVR. I juggle to delete other things so that one day I can watch them all or when summer comes and everything is reruns, I can have time to catch up and watch the shows from the winter. I try to delete them but then I know I always find a little nugget of information in them so I keep them and juggle. But recently the shows that I HAD to watch were about telling your children about their bodies, and sex and all that entails with Dr. Laura Berman.
I don't know about you but when I was growing up there was no sex talk, and this is an area that I am going to have to prepare for as I have no roadmap in teaching my own children. And I really want to do a good job with my girls. They are young but I am trying to lay the foundation now for having open conversations when the time comes.
This show spoke to me for many reasons as well as for the above reasons. And I had a huge AHA moment. This show had two fourteen year olds that were ready to have sex, yes and they were on the telly with their mothers talking about it (and where were the dads???) They were a cute couple, and were in love, holding hands.
The parents had tried their best, (that's what we all do our very best) the girl's mom had talked AT HER, the boy's mom was very open and had many discussions WITH HIM. But the kicker was when Dr. Laura Berman, (I love her) proceeded to ask the couple several pointed questions. Why do you want to have sex now? What will happen the next day? How long do you plan to be together? That last question was the one that tripped it all up. They asked the boy and he said "a long time." She then proceeded to ask the clarification of all clarifications. (Give it time, don't rush it...Oprah had to intervene and make Dr. Berman slow down) "How long is a long time?" He pauses dramatically, and finally says "6 months to a year."
Close up on fourteen year old girl, who has just been given the shock of her life thus far. I feel for her. She had no idea this was coming. My aha moment was that I could put myself back in her shoes (not the part about wanting to have sex at fourteen) but the I'm in love, and this is going to last forever. A long time defined for a young girl is forever, and that means they will get married and have children together and a long time for a boy...six months.
They talked some more about it, and asked fourteen year old girl again if she was ready to have her first time with him and she said well, not if he was going to put the limit on their relationship at six months. Wow, lesson learned. The questions were so relevant and ones that as a mother you wouldn't think of and I need to write them down for later use (or maybe I will save these in my DVR for a couple of years!!) I hope that the discussion was now opened up more for this young girl and her mother. I hope that I am able to empower my girls and give them the right amount of information, guidance, and values. And as for the fourteen year old boy, I wonder if he wishes that he had not gone on Oprah with Dr. Berman???
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Time to me has changed now. I'm not sure when it did this but now I have noticed it. I was just listening to a song by Darius Rucker called "It Won't Be Like This For Long" about children growing up fast and I had this exact sentiment when writing about holding Riley's hand a few weeks back. A change has occurred in the way that I look at time.
Maybe because I'm forty now? I had all the time in the world in my youth, teens, twenties. The thirties were spent becoming a parent and having very young children. During that time some of those days crawled. An hour with a newborn and toddler at home seemed to stretch for days. I remember just trying to survive one hour at a time. It was quite unbearable at times, just feeding, cleaning, changing diapers, crying, them and me. Now it is different.
My darlings are growing up as am I. There is still some crying and temper tantrums and you can use your imagination as to who is having them but the childrearing is getting a tad bit easier. I sat with my youngest daughter in my lap watching a movie in the theatre and we were swaying with our heads together to the music. I reached over and held my older daughter's hand too. I was overwhelmed with emotion and thought it just doesn't get any better than this. I have to hold on to these feelings because I will turn around and they will be grown. Yes, the way I look at time has changed and I'm changing too.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Oprah had on a very interesting show about motherhood recently, I don't know what the title was but there were some zingers from "real" moms. Moms admitted to "dirty little secrets." Some of them were really funny because they hit home, hard.
1- One mom admitted to skipping pages while reading to a young child at bedtime. In the past I did feel a little guilty that I would be messing up my child's ability to read and comprehend if I skipped pages or made up words to go with the pictures which sometimes was more work than reading the actual words. I realized that I am able to read complete pages correctly and have no idea of what I just read. I would like to thank my college education for that - that must be where I picked up the skill.
2- Another mom admitted to crying like there was an actual death in the family upon acquisition of a mini-van. I didn't cry but I sure felt sad. Mini-vans are so functional but hot, they are not. Maybe they are so cold, they are hot. All I know is that I'm already planning my next hybrid vehicle but my husband likes to drive cars for 10 years or more so, and he says he will drive the minivan. I can't allow that man to drive a minivan. It will damage his DNA in some way. I've already let my pride go, and he is already driving my handed down girly Highlander due to an accident. He gets the next car and it will be HOT!
3- a mom talked about how the nether regions were no longer an "in" site, they were an "out" sight as in, a human came out of the region and there would be no more incoming. This is an open blog site so I feel that I will not share a lot on this topic but there were times I agreed with her wholeheartedly especially when I was breastfeeding. That could be a whole topic in and of itself. I remember having to pick the nipples up and point them forward in the bra as they were so mashed up, they were heading south. Time and gravity are already doing that job but it seems like during breastfeeding it was amplified greatly.
These are my secrets:
4. My children don't always get baths everyday or every other day for that matter. If there is visible evidence of the need for a bath, that is what the leftover baby wipes are for.
5. I let my youngest child wear a nightgown during the day, in fact many different nightgowns over the course of the day. She just likes nightgowns. Who can blame her? They are very comfortable. I would wear one on the days we don't leave the house but I need support in the upper regions.
6. I really don't go goo goo over babies. I have a massive postpartum depression reflex and they scare the crap out of me. They are beautiful miracles (and I KNOW that) but I don't want to hold one. It brings back a boatload of anxiety.
7. I am very grateful that both of my children like yogurt because that seems to be the most nutritious food that they will get some days. Their diet is so limited to chicken fingers (or nuggets depending on the restaurant!), fish sticks, macaroni and cheese and let me not forget, GOLDFISH. I was actually delighted when Riley decided she liked a Lean Cuisine that had chicken, pasta and sauce, even with the salt it was more well rounded.
Those are some of mine that I can remember right now, do you have any mom secrets????
Saturday, April 4, 2009
At yoga on Friday, I was introduced to the five Tibetan Rites. I have been going to yoga for a couple of months now, again. After the last yoga session, I told my good friend that if I ever hesitated in going to yoga again, for her to tell me. "GO." I will appreciate it afterwards. Why do I hesitate in doing something that I know will benefit me greatly? Yoga is beginning to teach me a lot and it's one of those exercises that is good for the body, the mind and the soul and you can't get much better than that.
It has taken several years to get to this understanding of yoga. At first, I took yoga to relieve stress so that I could try to procreate. (Just a little pressure there to relax!) I had a hard time as I had been conditioned to do cardio in the form of treadmill or aerobics, and this yoga practice was very foreign. I'm not sure how long I practiced but then I did achieve conception and that ended my ability to practice yoga for years! Now seven or so years later, I have begun the practice again. Last spring I attended several beginner classes which was just my speed, and I thought, hmmmmm, maybe there is something to this. Then the summer schedule blew away my opportunites to practice once again.
On Friday, the fabulous teacher, Carmen took us through the five Tibetan rites and I had never been exposed to this. She told us that if practiced everyday, these are anti-aging exercises. The Tibetans live, (have lived?) to 150 years of age. Well, now as an information seeker, I HAVE to do research on them. I have always read about the benefits of yoga as well as Pilates. I am now practicing yoga and Pilates each once a week. That is what I can fit in and last week I rearranged my schedule for something important(?) and missed yoga. I realized that I must stick to the schedule. I HAVE to do it for me. I really, really missed it, and I felt off. When I walk out of the Y, I feel like my body and muscles have been well used and are achy but also feel so renewed and refreshed. And now I realize I want to adopt some form of a Tibetan practice, and that a disciplined approach is good for staying young. But then the summer will come around and the kids schedule will interfere...but maybe I will be a little further along in my practice and be able to do it on my own until I can hold out for Fall.
I hope that I am able to keep up the yoga practice until I am old, really old. When I look around the room, everyone in there is calm and serene. Such a difference from Boot Camp, or Muscle Works. That calmness is something that I long for and will continue to pursue.
This is probably NOT a link to a sample DVD of the Tibetan Rites - but you can find it on You Tube if you want. The first step is twirling!!!