It's a new year! What does that mean? What has changed? The ground is still saturated from the rains that lasted all day on New Year's Eve and yesterday. The sun is still not out today and more rain is falling. So here we are. A brand spanking new year. What does it mean?
We rang in the new year quietly. We had a delicious dinner visiting with George's sister and family from out of town and they headed back to their hotel several hours before midnight.
Riley watched Dick Clark's Rockin' Eve on her own. Mallory really wanted to stay up so the rest of us watched "Miracles from Heaven" waiting for midnight. In true fashion, I did fall asleep and make them watch the ending again. But at 11:55pm, Riley joined us on the couch making our core four celebration and we rang in the New Year together in central standard time. The ball had already dropped in New York but they dropped a Fleur de Lis live in New Orleans and by 12:02am, we were heading to bed. Check please!
I'll have to say the first two days of the new year feels sort of empty because it is just the same as the last day of 2016. It seems as though there is an expectation that is should be brand spanking new! It is a new year, month, and day and opportunity for a new slate yet the dishes, Legos and laundry are still sitting there waiting. I gave up resolutions years ago as those don't work. But what I have learned is that intention is the way to go for me.
Intention has worked for me and I'm not really sure how or why I started I just knew things needed to change. For one thing, there has to be a very passionate desire to change something. Intention has been my steely focus on a daily basis on my thoughts (and healing!) I was very resolute. I haven't been this resolute about anything before. I didn't start out to be intentional, it just happened along the way... First, I had to become aware that I had negative thoughts that needing changing. As I woke up to that voice in my head with the runny dialogue I discovered the the story I told myself was "I can't" all the freaking time. Not a good thing.
After practice, practice, practice, when a negative thought popped in, I take note. And slowly, I dismantle them. I ask the critical question, "Is this true?" Really true? I used intentionality every day, to change this. Therapy woke me up but that was just the beginning. I self taught with many teachers that I listened to, watched videos and read. Along with intentions, I learned I needed to be in the moment. Persons like Eckhart Tolle, Gary Zukav, Michael Singer and Byron Katie. Anyone who taught about mindfulness. There's so much to this process of becoming awakened. More later.
(Jesus' taught this too - the renewing of the mind but that blog will come later.)
This past year, I did not write nearly as much, only 20 blogs, compared to 50-60 in previous years. I had profound thoughts that came into my mind, but they didn't come through me. Politics anyone? I have felt blocked and hindered. I feel like something is passing me by. It is not a good thing at all. I have an intention this year to write and blog more. I need to process my life this way. I do not feel like I'm in the flow and may energy is sagging not tuning in to my authenticity. The older I get, I need to listen to my intuition and do what I know works for me. Shutting out the assault of politics to my senses is going to be one way to help me stay intentional. Sitting down for my Spiritual Formation homework is another. It centers me fairly quickly.
For me, this new year means zeroing in on intention again. The intention of listening to my intuition and the God nudges that come in my thoughts. And putting those down even if they are not perfectly stated. Now that I have spent quite some time clearing some of the negative ones, the light is coming in. Alright, 2017 here we go!