We are the stories we tell ourselves.
I plug along and listen to so much great input from many sources and then bam, I hear something like I never heard it before. And then I get IT.
Iyanla Van Zant was discussing the stories we tell ourselves on one of Oprah's Lifeclass Tours and it hit me lot a ton of bricks. When you tell yourself a story long enough, you believe it and this is the kicker, it isn't necessarily true. All of a sudden it occurred to me that it applies to a simple issue involving how I think about practicing yoga. I think practicing yoga is "supposed" to look a certain way and if it doesn't look that way, it isn't doing yoga. And then I just give up because I haven't done it in so long, and I lost my muscles, etc.
I tell myself, I don't go to yoga class enough. Yet in reality, I can practice at home. I've done enough classes over the years that even if I go through some poses for ten minutes, I HAVE practiced yoga. That is not what I tell myself. My messed up thinking is that I might as well not do anything. I asked a friend of mine if she had ever done yoga. She says that she does a tape at home. Ironically, I didn't question that she really practiced yoga. Why do I question myself? It's the old track going in my brain that what I do isn't enough.
It really is high time I break that track.
I have felt the need to get on the floor lately and I did. Yoga was calling me and I did a few minutes of poses.
The next day I practiced using a 15 minute session on DVD.
I AM practicing yoga. I just have to keep telling myself that in a kind way over and over until I rewrite that track.