Sunday, May 4, 2014
My First Red Carpet…
The last few years, I have been stepping out and doing all sorts of things I would normally not do. I lived in fear. Before, I wouldn't have left the kids, I wouldn't have wanted to find a dress and deal with body image issues. I wouldn't have driven downtown. I would have worried about parking. I would have worried if I was "good enough" to be there because I thought everyone else was "better" than me. All of those ideas are non-issues now, but they held me captive. Those were the stories I told myself.
And this is what my soul journey is all about! Letting go of what has held me captive.
Our night started out good, took an immediate downturn and then perked up, and ended spectacularly. Before we even arrived to the venue, walking from the parking garage, I dropped my friend's phone and cracked the screen. Not a good start.
I knew in that moment, I had to let it go because I wanted to enjoy the evening. It was an accident. After the shock, she had to let it go as well, it was her phone! I offered to help pay for it, and she said she needed a glass of wine so off we went. We started chatting with acquaintances. It was still in the back of my mind but I pushed it back enough to let go and have a good time. I had a small shame spiral the next day but it flowed through.
I knew a lot of people there and we enjoyed our pre-concert time. There was a booth to take pictures with Rick cut outs and it was a raffle with the prize meeting Rick after the concert.
Guess who won?
In preparation for the concert, I dug out my one Rick Springfield Greatest Hits CD and checked out his autobiography called, "Late, Late At Night" and began reading and listening. His story was compelling. I watched present day interviews when he became tearful talking about his life-long depression, suicide attempt and use of meditation, writing and the love of his family to survive. This is my kind of rock star. Tortured, vulnerable, talented and truthful.
I hadn't listened to any of his recent music since the 80's but started finding it on the web and was fascinated. All day before the concert, I did my research. I have to prepare before I go and refamiliarize myself with Rick and his current endeavors, including his newly releasing fiction book.
Up until yesterday, I still had two chapters left to read in his memoir and I put off finishing them. I didn't want to say goodbye to Rick. It was such a fun night of great music, dancing, and a thrilling chance to meet him.
I have now finished the book. I have now written the blog. And I can always reminisce about this great memory. It will always be a great memory and the possibilities of what can happen when you step out of your comfort zone: the good, the bad and the spectacular!